I left Indianapolis last week thinking about God. I could not begin to tell you what He did for me at that conference. He reinforced my healing. He wowed me with the people He has placed in my life. He lavished love on me. And He showed me ways in which He is making my dreams come true.
What do you make of a God who gives you the fondest, most intimate, most humanly impossible desire of your heart? A God who tilts your head so that the line of blessings He has given you suddenly comes into clear focus? A God who gives and gives and keeps on giving out of nothing short of pure, unselfish, unconditional love?
The tears were already flowing when I thought about the weekend and I saw His hand moving. Then Francesca Battistelli’s “Beautiful, Beautiful” came on the radio. “Like sunlight burning at midnight, making my life something so beautiful, beautiful.” My life is beautiful to God. The Almighty looks at me and sees me as beautiful. The Most Beautiful sees something beautiful in me. Wait. I can’t form the words. I can’t grasp the concept. He is making my life something beautiful.
That does more than floor me. It transports me to a place past understanding. I look at me and see who I used to be. I see the massive, huge sin that shadowed my life and crippled me for so many years. I see the sinner I still am today. As I navigated the highway between Indy and Louisville, God opened my eyes and reminded me where the journey has taken me, of the words He poured out on the page through me as He healed me and forgave me for what I did. He has taken something so unbelievably horrific and made it beautiful.
And then He opened His hand and said, “See? I’m not done yet. I’m making your dream come true.” How can God look at a sinner like me and give a gift like that? It wasn’t enough for Him to forgive me. It wasn’t enough for Him to restore me. Now He wants to go even further and bless me? It defies logic.
Out of broken pieces… something beautiful.
-JB
“What do you make of a God who gives you the fondest, most intimate, most humanly impossible desire of your heart? A God who tilts your head so that the line of blessings He has given you suddenly comes into clear focus? A God who gives and gives and keeps on giving out of nothing short of pure, unselfish, unconditional love?”
I’m not sure what to make of this…but when I read that my first thought was “I’ll let you know when I run into him.”
Yeah…I need to do some praying.
Walking through the desert plain stinks. But when you come out on the other side… Man, you’ll see where he’s been hovering all along.
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